I'm listening to Jeff Beck. He's insane. My brain is going to explode. Too many things on my mind. I can't go with her. How can I trust people I don't know? It doesn't help that everyone will be fucked up. The other one puts pressure one us. But she doesn't see it. Cause she's a Grade-A Bitch. She doesn't try to understand. She never will. It's eating at me. I cannot tell her, for I will ruin her fun. I'm worrying. I have a reason to. It almost hurts. I don't know if it should or shouldn't. The dudes get to go. I can't. Fuck me man. Blakemore | 
